its like a giant worm animal has crawled into my skull through my nose and swallowed my brain whole. but, like a snake, this worm isn't quite large enough to ingest my entire brain at once so its just sort of wedged inside its elastic skin. yeah... that's what it's like. like my entire brain is being constricted. and with the feeling I'm suddenly very aware of my head. it feels heavy or something. particularly the pressure is right on the top of my head, kind of pushing downwards and every once in a while this... plate... I don't know how else to describe it, that's just what comes to mind, just this outer covering over the top of my brain suddenly surges with pain and then stops. it's not really a headache, just everyone once and a while...

I also don't think I normally need to ask people to repeat themselves three or four times before I have any idea what they've said. I even keep turning the subtitles on for movies when I watch them because otherwise I miss things

but MOST FUCKING ANNOYING OF ALL I cannot fucking have one thought at a time. I can't just friggin think of just one thing. I can't concentrate on anything. I'll be thinking about something and a wave of other things, sometimes totally unrelated things, just flood into my mind. do you have any idea how long it's taking me to write this stupid journal? a long-ass time. and it's worse when I'm trying to write something productive like I dunno my NOVEL I'VE BEEN WORKING ON FOR YEARS. I'll be writing but at the same time I'll be thinking about food, or star trek, or the red ring of death on my xbox, or my cat, or my head, or the headphones for my crappy mp3 player, or how no cool video games have come out for a while. no wait, scratch all that, I'll be thinking about food AND star trek AND the red ring of death on my xbox AND my cat AND my head AND the headphones for my crappy mp3 player AND how no cool video games have come out for a while all at the same time and none of my thoughts will be full and complete...

it's just a mess up here -taps noggin'-

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origins: spirits of the past is a bad movie. it's just silly

madagascar 2 is okay. it has its moments

I haven't really seen any other movies lately